mountain madness

Ya ever feel dislocated somehow? I had a rad day...i don't work until friday morning, thats aces. I packed a snickers, some red vines, a few bottles of beer, a lighter and chapstick into my backpack. i tuned my beaten up koa wood guitar, placed her in her cheap old case with broken buckles and threw her in the back of my rusted out honda with bald tires. i crossed my fingers as i turned the key on my honda and started her up...drove away from my temporary shelter here in Georgia and just drove. I knew what i wanted to do. i wanted to find a place off of a mountain trail where i could look out over the blue ridge peaks and valleys and just chill. so i did. i ended up off a trail in the Chatahoochee National Forest. it's harder than it looks to walk a narrow mountain path and carry a guitar. i managed without slipping and falling to my death. i continued walking the muddy trail all the way to the side of the mountain which was still getting the noon-day sun. spotting a dead tree with plenty of "sit and drink beer and play guitar," room i made myself comfortable. alone. cold bottle of new castle in hand, my guitar sounded perfect bouncing off of the valleys below me. it was kind of one of those "perfect" moments. peaceful (with the exception of a jake brake in the distance,and what i am assuming was sasquatch climbing the trail below me rustlin the dead leaves.)picture perfect. but it wasnt. i sit, i stood, i sang songs to the trees staring out at them pretending they were an audience of 500,000 anxious fans. i made a phone call to a friend. i sent a few text messages, i sat and stared at my boots. i ate my snickers, i took a photo or two...and then, nothing. i experienced a quiet peaceful moment on the side of a mountain off the Appalacian trail, but i did it alone. the past year has led me to understanding myself a bit more. what i have come to conclude is that yes, i am an adventure seeking indivdual. BUT...i dont get pure joy doing things alone. im a sharer. i wanna go places with people to meet people, to be with people, to talk to people and to pretty much understand people. thats the sort of thing which entertains me. i get so bored with myself. i need interaction, companionship and to ability to share and experience moments like the one i had today...with more than just myself. just like when i lived in oregon. it was freakin beautiful there. i hiked, i biked, i went to little breweries, i experienced a ton of oregon's sites and sounds. i went and played at open mic nights where no one knew me. i spent thanksgiving morning at a 5k run for charity, and 5 days a week when i wasnt working i walked the dogs, did some gardening, and stayed at home writing songs and playing guitar. those were awesome experiences, but i did them alone. i had nobody to share those stupid moments with. i left oregon missing the people i worked with at REI, but that was about it. i couldnt stay in a city living a life which was predominantly lived alone. i need people. i love conversation and interaction. i thrive off of it. i guess alls im tryin to say is that life is freakin awesome..the places i have gone ,the things i have done, are some pretty amazing things, but those experiences dont add up to much of anything worth taking with me unless they were moments shared with a group o friends or an individual. so cheers to that. i hope that 2010 brings me the opportunity to continue to experience new places and events....WITH the people i love and care for. wherever that may be.